Beat up but not defeated

Woke up this morning and the first words that came out of my mouth were " OMG i'm late". This was at 9:30 am. I didnt know i could make shower, dress up and make lunch within 25min but i did it and i was off to school to tackle the great dragon: MATLAB. I write it in upper case just so you know how much this programing has reduced my almost non exisitent social life to zero. I am sure my house mates think i moved or something i bet they wonder where the loud music comes from.
6:06pm i am still in my little cubic, still not killed the dragon i have 16hrs to go before i am summoned by the mighty lord (my supervisor) to give account of what i have been doing with all free intenet, office (i.e the cubicle), electricity (actually that is not really a benefit but you never know) and free coffee (which i never drink, as strange as it sounds i function better without it, i dont need it anywhere i rarely sleep).
I am the word stressed personified. I think MATLAB i dream MATLAB even as i eat MATLAB window is what i am looking at. I am stressed beyong what i can think of but suprisingly i dont want to be defeated by a common computer program.
For what its worth i think this is the first time i have been mentally chanelleged in my schooling in a long time.
Although i am tired and wish for nothing but a long hot bath, chocolate cake, sweet ice tea, wonderful movie at the cinema, a beautiful new dress, knee length boots ( i've longed for that for a long time) and maybe if they behave my family ( I havent seen them in a while. I kind of miss them. Iam not married or have any kids just mean my parents and siblings they are quite a hanful. With them who needs kids lol).

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