No Plan Year
I keep trying to write new things but i find myself deleting them every time because I have lost the child-like wonder of putting thoughts into written words; one place my thoughts can flow out freely. I want to rectify that as the entire idea of this blog is to put forth my thoughts.
It is almost the end of the first quarter of the year and I still do not have any idea what I want to do this year, I have made no plans. Unlike many, I find the idea of writing down a new year resolution a total waste of my time. Therefore I don't write that - I set and execute goals.
Now one thing you have to know about me, I am extremely goal oriented and a serial planner. This means if I have written down a goal I have to accomplish it no matter what happens even if it threatens to kill me. So when I choose my goals I do some carefully. This year however, I decided to go out of my comfort zone and practice just-letting-things-be. Taking each day as it comes without planning. Oh this only revolves around what the next steps of my career is going, I still plan my meals, cloths and finances to the last details (baby steps). It has been the most torturous time of my thought life. To not plan and have a goal for so long, there is no project I am currently working on to either improve myself or rectify a faulty process. One my wonder then why the torture? I needed it, in order to build up myself and reinvent myself I needed to stop all the things I am use to and know how to do. I had to learn from scratch. It is not a comfortable time in my life I can say that for sure. First of all I am learning how to take a step back and watch someone fail so they can learn by experience. I have to constantly stop myself from thinking of solving problems in other people's lives then implementing it without them even knowing how their lives got changed.
Even though I am uncomfortable, I know when I come out of it, I will be much more focused, empathetic and learn how to give up control. So in a way my decision not to make any career plan is actually a plan for change. You see I am at a cross roads, I am being pull in three different directions on where I want to take my career. I want to do what comes naturally to me without effort but still add value to humanity. I think value adding is now a big deal for me now. I guess I am finally human 😊.
It is almost the end of the first quarter of the year and I still do not have any idea what I want to do this year, I have made no plans. Unlike many, I find the idea of writing down a new year resolution a total waste of my time. Therefore I don't write that - I set and execute goals.
Now one thing you have to know about me, I am extremely goal oriented and a serial planner. This means if I have written down a goal I have to accomplish it no matter what happens even if it threatens to kill me. So when I choose my goals I do some carefully. This year however, I decided to go out of my comfort zone and practice just-letting-things-be. Taking each day as it comes without planning. Oh this only revolves around what the next steps of my career is going, I still plan my meals, cloths and finances to the last details (baby steps). It has been the most torturous time of my thought life. To not plan and have a goal for so long, there is no project I am currently working on to either improve myself or rectify a faulty process. One my wonder then why the torture? I needed it, in order to build up myself and reinvent myself I needed to stop all the things I am use to and know how to do. I had to learn from scratch. It is not a comfortable time in my life I can say that for sure. First of all I am learning how to take a step back and watch someone fail so they can learn by experience. I have to constantly stop myself from thinking of solving problems in other people's lives then implementing it without them even knowing how their lives got changed.
Even though I am uncomfortable, I know when I come out of it, I will be much more focused, empathetic and learn how to give up control. So in a way my decision not to make any career plan is actually a plan for change. You see I am at a cross roads, I am being pull in three different directions on where I want to take my career. I want to do what comes naturally to me without effort but still add value to humanity. I think value adding is now a big deal for me now. I guess I am finally human 😊.
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