New obsession

Hi Everyone,
Its been ages since I wrote. I have started writing about something then stopped myself not because I don't have things on my mind but because of self preservation. All the things on my mind if written down will comeback and bite me in the ..................I still want to afford my addiction of shoes, fruits, novels, travelling and trying out new restaurants. Yes I know I am a foodie, I hate cooking but love eating. I only cook when I am trying to forget the stress I am going through  (My happy place). The thoughts I wanted to put down were going to cost me a lot, even voicing my concerns about certain situations to certain people (whose names shall not be mentioned) has put me in very bad situations. Imagine if they had some physical evidence of what I really thought then........... Sorry I rambled off the topic for a while there. Oh yea I remember I am to tell you  about my new obsession.

It is drawing in COLOR!!!!!!!!!!!!

HB had told me about expanding my drawing of flowers to other things and see if I actually have a talent. I never listened until yesterday. I went to the shops got some paint, brushes and sketch pads. Started drawing just as I got home and couldn't stop. I am here in school and all I can think about is what  I will draw next on my sketch pad. I am even thinking of trying watercolors and acrylics just to get the artistic feel of things.

 The two images are just a few of the pictures that came to my mind last night and I just had to put them on paper before they ran from my brain. I want to do some still-life drawings just to get to know if my hands can interpret what my eyes sees. I will keep you guys posted on the progress of these new obsession I just discovered.

Knowing that I am doing something with no deadlines or no scores involved makes me so happy that I never want to stop. And why should I when there are so many things trying their optimum best to kill my self esteem, joy and peace of mind? So if this obsession keeps those thoughts of failure and anger away even for a few minutes a day I will gladly succumb to it.

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