My thoughts

Hi Everyone, Its been ages since I wrote. I have started writing about something then stopped myself not because I don't have things on my mind but because of self preservation. All the things on my mind if written down will comeback and bite me in the ..................I still want to afford my addiction of shoes, fruits, novels, travelling and trying out new restaurants. Yes I know I am a foodie, I hate cooking but love eating. I only cook when I am trying to forget the stress I am going through  ( My happy place ). The thoughts I wanted to put down were going to cost me a lot, even voicing my concerns about certain situations to certain people (whose names shall not be mentioned) has put me in very bad situations. Imagine if they had some physical evidence of what I really thought then........... Sorry I rambled off the topic for a while there. Oh yea I remember I am to tell you  about my new obsession. It is drawing in COLOR!!!!!!!!!!!! HB had told me about expanding...

I have always wanted to go to Mauritius so when the opportunity arose I jumped on the band wagon. I must say it was all I expected and More!!!  Then in Mauritius I wished I had my friends with me and what do you know I met two amazing ladies (one I knew before but lost contact).  Am not trying to make you jealous (but if you are I totally understand I would hate me too) but I understand why people just drop everything and go on vacation. There is this refresh look about everything, the grass seems greener, the sun seems brighter but not too hot, the sky is ever so blue and some how all the modelling problem you had before the vacation seems to fade away. All these last for about a week before reality about school and crazy deadlines set in.  Below are just a few of the views I had in Mauritius.

I never understood people who packed up their bags and decide to go for a 2 week vacation in the middle of the year. I totally did not get why they would waste so much money. However I am beginning to understand the importance of just getting away. To say this year has been hectic is an understatement.  I have known what it is to be helpless and homeless at the same time..............  I have been called a fool and an idiot in so many words and ways...................  I have been told how incompetent I am................................................ I do not even want to go into my own personal self-doubt that hunts me day and night (but mostly at night because its just more scary then, I tell you these self-doubts are smart little things eh ).... All that whining above is to give a justification of why I needed a break, I needed to get out, I needed to escape even if it would be just for a few days. And I got my reason to tour the world Manchester a...

I had doubts about things I wanted to do. Lots of people doubted me too. I had so much on my plate and in a fix of some sort. Things have not gotten back on track however, I changed the way I saw things, people and situation. Suddenly the problems did not seem so big, the people did not seem to mean or out to get me. I had this change of heart by seeing something positive in everything. I know it sounds like a cheesy thing to say but it actually works. Even the littlest good thing can bring a huge change in the perception of how we see things. If we practice this often the ulcers will be kept at bay and the headaches will fade and some how the air will feel fresher and the sun brighter. An example is right now, I am sitting in the most boring ever. The positive side is that I am able to update my blog which I have not been able to do in a long time. Have a lovely week 😀

Is it weird that all I am thinking about today is getting home to make mushroom soup with springbok stew and curried rice? I have even considered making Nigerian meat pie for desert. I feel sorry for anyone coming to visit today because I need to force the food on someone. Did I mention I love to make my food from scratch so no packet soup for me. When I was a few weeks ago where my happy place is I had no idea. I thought maybe it is the beach but I am not really a fan of all that sand and heat. I love my TV but there is so much movies you can watch. However, I am a foodie so food comes naturally to me. I do not like cooking for everyday eating I preferred to be pampered by going to the restaurant or having friends take pity on me and feed me. I have made cooking a therapeutic thing for me. It is where I retreat to when everything is falling apart. It is where I go to think when I have a major problem in school or I have an impossible mathematical model...

I always laughed when I saw engineers improvise with things to get them barely working and I thought "that can never be me".  I was wrong!! This picture clearly shows that I would rather use a face tissue paper and a hair holder than a band-aid on a cut. I found there are two advantages to this   It applies pressure, therefore the bleeding stops faster.  It is cheaper, safe and still does the same job as a band-aid

Hello everyone, Me without my gun I  know I have not written in a long time. The truth is I feel I didn't have anything to write about. Also I have been going through some 'soul searching' moments in my life (this happens like every two months since I started my PhD). I try to spice up my weekends so I do not have the urge to binge or pick up a journal article to study. Of late I have been trying out things I never thought I would do, going on rides, tour of Johannesburg, go-kart racing , trips to the zoo etc. I have done all these adventures with friends, people I am very comfortable with and they know all the personal space boundaries I have set. Last Saturday I went Paint balling with a group of people, about 19 of us of which I only knew 3 people. It was torture at first because I had to start talking to people I do not know or haven't met before without the help of alcohol . I was going to do a combat activity tha...

The first lesson I learnt during my one month of hell in Lagos was NO ONE IS INDISPENSABLE!!!! I have always thought of myself as one who can read the characters of people no matter what, this talent of mine turned out to be quite dysfunctional when I found myself in need. The thought of losing certain people in my life never crossed my mind but in need somehow you find yourself readjusting your priorities. That was the case with me, I had to let some people go and pick up some people too. I experienced the phrase 'not everyone is meant to be in your life forever'. It was something I use to tell people and never thought I would experience it. I realized that letting go of people or things I value or think are most important in my life is more difficult than I thought, but when I let go I found out I felt lighter. The lesson I learnt helped me in my next phase in my life as I arrived in South Africa. It was time to 'clean house'!!!!

Have you ever felt helpless and frustrated? All you want to do is find a nice corner and cry to your heart's content? That is how I felt on 2nd Jan at 10 pm GMT. I was just told I would not travel back to South Africa. The person delivering this message made sure I saw how pleased he was that I would not "leave" them in Nigeria to "suffer" while I went to enjoy in "ABROAD"!!!! My luggage was thrown out and my passport flung at me. This stress came because South African Immigration services do not communicate with each other. In South Africa I was given a go ahead to travel out with my paper visa, in Nigeria I was told the visa was not valid. I had to apply for a visitor's visa in order to reenter South Africa so I can sort out the mess they had made of my permit. My bank decided at that point to be efficient and freeze my account since I was not in the county at the time I said I would be.  I reapplied for the visa and was told it would ...

So my life had been out on standstill for the past two months due to the fact that I went to spend time with my parents.  All my inactivity is about to change for some serious school and work. I have lagged behind in so many things that before I am asked what my progress is I will turn on the water works (tears). Now it's a new year with new dreams and of cause the never fulfilled resolutions.  So I have decided this year I have made my resolution not to make a resolution and so far it's working really well for me.  After all the events that transpired in 2012, all the failed plans, disappointments (in myself and others), surprises (both good and bad), in 2013 I have decided to take everyday as it come, with no expectations and so far I must say it is quite liberating. I listened to a sermon yesterday that encouraged not to think and plan his/her life based on the opinions on others if not he/she will never succeed because people's opinions are constantly changing. An...